A little hiccup

So I have been saying for awhile that I've basically been spotting starting from week 4 to now (week 7.5). So I'm pretty used to seeing something when I go to the bathroom. Well.. this afternoon I went to the bathroom and saw my liner was filled with blood! I went to wipe and I saw that I passed a clot the size alittle smaller than a dime. And as I sat there the toilet just filled with blood. I had a feeling a miscarriage was inevitable. So I called my doctor and asked what I should do, if I should just wait it out or come in, she said she had an appointment available in the afternoon and to come in. So she asks me some questions and finds out the ultrasound lady was available to take a look. So she sticks the transvaginal ultrasound wand in me and my heart kind of sank cause I saw a sac but I didn't see anything in it. BUT once she started moving it around she found the baby and even found the heartbeat. She says the baby is measuring exactly 7 weeks 4 days and the heartbeat was strong at 153bpm!! Wow. it was amazing to know and to see the baby finally and to know the baby is still in there alive and well!!! The doctor wasn't exactly sure what the clot was, she said something about it coming from behind the placenta? Not really sure what it was exactly, but for now, the baby is okay and the bleeding has stopped for the most part. Gosh I hope the rest of the 33 weeks isn't as scary as the first 7!! I can at least breathe a sigh of relief for now until my next appointment next week. And here's a picture the ultrasound lady gave me to take home!

7 weeks!

So I'm about 7 weeks 4 days now. Less than 1 week till my 8 week appointment! I can't wait to find out if there is a little eggroll growing in me. I haven't had much morning sickness. Yesterday night was the only time I felt like I might puke at the smell at my own cooking (shows how good a cook I am!!). Other than that I sometimes have times when I feel blah but I can still function normally and it usually goes away when I eat or sleep. I'm still spotting on and off which I don't know if its a good thing. I started feeling a little cramping/stretching during the week. Hopefully it means that the little eggroll is getting bigger! I also have eliminated some of my "skinnier" jeans already! Wow some of them are tight already! Right now I wear my "normal" and "fat" jeans, aka the jeans I wear when I feel bloated. I have a feeling that I'll be in maternity pants soon at this rate!

 I pray for this little guy (or girl) everyday hoping he/she will grow up healthy and strong and most importantly loves God! I still am learning to trust God and have to pray constantly to take away my worry and fears and anxieties. I just can't wait till next week (God willing I make it that far!)

And because blog posts aren't any fun without pictures, here's one of our baby kody!

6 weeks!

So today I'm at 6 weeks and 2 days. Last week we had a very nice relaxing vacation. This vacation was planned originally to coincide with the fertile period of our 6th month trying but thankfully God had other plans for us. We went on a Miami cruise to the bahamas. It was soo nice and warm and the water is just so beautiful on the east coast! I must say I take the SD beaches for granted. I only go about once a year. But our beaches aren't as beautiful as the East Coast! 

 

Coco Cay, Bahamas

Relaxing on the beach

A view from Atlantis!

I was alittle moody on our trip at times because I felt like EVERYONE and their mom was smoking around me! I tried to escape it as much as I could but sometimes you're just stuck around smokers! I just wanted to scream I was pregnant so people would move away but alas I'm too nice. Besides that for the most part everything was good. I'm still spotting on and off, mostly brown but there was some pink last week which freaked me out! I got my HCG levels tested though and it was doubling like it should so that gave me a little relief. This week should be the start of morning sickness for most people. I haven't had much symptoms besides slight nausea, my bbs are still alittle sore, and I'm starting to have to pee multiple times a night. But I'm not sure if it's just cause I'm drinking more too. Anyway, 2 more weeks til my appointment where we can find out if someone's growing inside me! Literally counting down the days...

5 weeks!

Tomorrow is the 5 week mark! While I do eventually want to take belly pictures, I won't for now until I get my first ultrasound (May 1st is SOOO far away!). So far I'm feeling the same, I could be having some pregnancy symptoms but I've had similar symptoms when not pregnant so I'm not really sure if these are true symptoms. The spotting for the most part has stopped. I mostly notice it when I wipe (and I hold my breath everytime I go to the bathroom for fear of seeing blood!). For sure I have sore bb's when something is pressed against it, kind of gassy at times, tired at times, tearing up at really random stories, etc. Alot of these seem like they can be coincidence too. I'm trying to still consider the possibility that this pregnancy might not last. I don't want to get my hopes up until I see an ultrasound and hear the heartbeat. But at the same time fearing a miscarriage is causing me to stress out so I try not to think about that either! I'm constantly praying to God for comfort and peace no matter what happens. I pray for this little eggroll to grow up strong and healthy but at the same time I pray that God's will be done that if He wants to take our little eggroll away to be with Him that I would be okay with it. What a rollercoaster of emotions! I get this weird nervous feeling everytime I think about the baby or the pregnancy. Kind of like butterflies. I've read online (btw, google is like the best and worst invention ever. esp during pregnancy!!) that nervous butterfly feeling can actually be a pregnancy symptom! Well I read that one lady knew she was pregnant whenever she had that feeling. So I'm hoping that's a good sign. 3 more weeks to go till we see the little eggroll!

For now a picture of Kody!

Why Little Eggroll?

So here's a little background behind why this blog is called little eggroll. The hubs and I decided before we conceived that we would call the baby in my tummy eggroll. The main reason is because the hubs is Vietnamese and seriously, Vietnamese eggrolls are the BEST. Wrap it in some lettuce and dip it in some fish sauce and its good to go! I'm Taiwanese and we have eggrolls too... but their not as good as the Vietnamese ones that's for sure. But anyway, since the baby is basically just an egg, we decided to call him/her our little eggroll!

A little more info about us, the hubs is a teacher, and I'm an engineer. We live in SD (the hubs was born and raised here). We met back in our senior year of high school when I moved from NY. I started attending the youth group that he was at.  6 months later we started dating, did the long distance thing through college, then got married at 23! 4.5 years later here we are!

A picture from our wedding day!

We have two little furballs Oliver and Kody. Both have distinct personalities. One is sweet and not so smart, and one is not so sweet but really smart. But we love them and they are our first kiddies!

As for our little eggroll, so far he/she is hanging in there. The spotting has gone away for the most part. So I'm feeling alittle more confident about it today. I know anything can happen at any point during the pregnancy so I'm just trying to take it one day at a time! I still don't feel any different, not extra hungry or extra tired. Our first appointment isn't until May 1st so I hope everything goes well until then!

Our little eggroll!!

God has graciously blessed us with a little eggroll! My period was due on Sat March 30th and with no signs of it I decided to take a pregnancy test. To my surprise I slowly saw the second line appear!

Still unable to process it we decided to test with a digital pregnancy test the next day. And lo and behold within a minute of testing I see...

 

God has been good to us and blessed us tremendously. Our estimated due date is December 8th, 2012. While I want to celebrate, I'm still hesitant to because I'm not sure if this baby will stick. I started spotting yesterday and while its not alot and its brown (brown = may be okay, pink/red = probably not okay), it still worries me to no end! I'm trying to stay calm because I know that God is the giver of life and if He chooses, He can take this  baby away when He wills. I am trying to live in that truth and know that God is in charge and in control. However, with that said, I know that God listens to our prayers so I am constantly praying to Him to sustain this pregnancy, that He would allow this eggroll to grow healthy physically and mentally. I pray that God would develop all of little eggroll's organs and brain fully. I also pray for the personality of our little eggroll! That he/she would be sweet, friendly, social, loving, and just a calm personality. I know there is plenty of time to worry throughout these next 9 months (God willing) so I am constantly relying on Him for His comfort and learning to trust in Him more. More updates to come...