Devotions

I don't think its a coincidence that what I read in my daily devotions directly applies to my struggles with becoming pregnant. I started Romans a couple months ago and kept reading through the New Testament and now I'm on 2 Corinthians 12. The passage that really spoke to me was 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.

 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

My struggle, although minor compared to persecutions and other hardships, has definitely made me feel weak. I know that I cannot do anything to get pregnant besides wait for God's perfect timing. But this passage has given me alot of comfort. Knowing that God's grace is sufficient for me is so comforting. Knowing that Christ's power is strong enough to get me through my weakest moments. And I do have a lot of moments when I just get so frustrated and angry that nothing is happening. And I continually have to come before God and pray for a pure heart.

I'm also reading through Genesis where there are alot of stories about barren woman who God has opened their womb to have children. Specifically Sarah and Rachel. It shows just how sovereign our God is and how children are a gift from God.

I just pray and hope that someday God will gift us with children! Its the end of the 4th month trying to conceive. We'll see in a couple days whether or not we're onto the 5th month. I just pray for God to give me patience and grace and joy no matter the outcome.